Confused yet Determined

I'm still in state of confusion & lost... its day 3 since i broke my 1st racquet... I noe y i broke the racq now... Thinking about afraid to lose wad i have got... afraid tat things wouldn't be the same anymore... the tell tale signs r all out there... i m not blind... but i wish i was... so i dun have to feel it at all in the 1st place... in the 1st place i shld have never even started...

Now its time to go back to the beginning, i have lost my edge... Used to have the Eye of the Tiger... The hunger... Now i m like completely devastated... How did everything so gd become so bad???